hey everyone my nice new friends.
i had my first visit with a therapist today.
i was totally open with everything.
Hey everyone my nice new friends.
I had my first visit with a therapist today. I was totally open with everything. No lightning strikes from heaven. Even Tony Morris can’t hurt me.
With your waking up. Go talk to someone. Be honest. The world doesn’t hate us. They love us. They want to help. Take the positives from being a JW and use it to move on. If your older no problem just pick up your feet. Shake the dust off and see where you can make a difference. What a wild ride.
in my city philadelphia they closed many kingdom halls.
my hall was desolved and most of the publishers were added to a congregation that only had 50 publishers.
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I live in northern Canada and it’s being felt here to. The brothers and sisters are so nieve to the reality. They all think it’s a sign the the great tribulation is getting closer. The last four at least local needs parts were all about setting up your go bag. That’s how they are keeping everyone’s mind off the reality that there being ripped off and taken advantage of. I mean even the LDC guys coming around are completely in the dark and think it’s all about keeping up with the chariot. Crazy stuff I tell ya.
this is one of the saddest places a person can ever be in for sure.
this is were the person is no longer in the organization physically, for whatever reason.
they haven't attended meetings in years.
The way I look at it I am sure for the rest of my life this thought of oh no is this it will always be here.
Truly though I am not worried about it anymore. I mean I tried the best I could and if Jehovah wants to kill me for being a critical thinker then so be it. I can’t tell you how many times I have thought over the last few years of taking my life. Thinking my wife would be better off with some elder who has his shit together. I don’t want to live even one more day under this theocracy nightmare let alone forever. I always thought I would end up with the crowd in the picture at the end of the revelation book. I just couldn’t crack there group. I was never a ass kisser. From what I am witnessing with you guys on here I would rather take my chances with you guys.
In my opinion religion in general is just a hurtful machine and the sooner we break free as a society the better the chance we will have to save this planet from the problems we have. These guys at the WT have really hurt me and robbed me of a lot.
I am not going away. If these guys push me into a corner then watch out. To say I am not angry is a understatement. I need to try to rescue my family that I indoctrinated because I was to stupid and lazy to do my research. these guys have a lot to answer for. Talk about secret society’s. This one takes the cake. Mr Morris is the one with the blood on his hands not me.
Sorry for venting
this is my first post.
i feel intimidated because i don't really know computers to well and i hope that i don't break any rules.
i became a jw in 1981. i left in 91. i have so many questions.
I appreciate your thoughts and welcome.
Its a comforting space for me and I am sure it will be for you.
Have fun in Alabama and looking forward hearing what you have to say
https://twitter.com/mark_j_odonnell/status/1095514606657851392.
"in the past 12 months, #watchtower has obtained more than 36 unique subpoenas to identify the people who have posted their documents, leaked videos, & images from their publications.
this #watchhunt is a coordinated effort to locate & punish the leak sources.".
it’s becoming obvious to me this is just a bunch a guys Loosing control. I have a funny feeling things are going to unravel here quickly. Having just recently woken up here I can say this is all very wild information that I really had no idea was happening. If the the lid ever really gets blown off these guys there is going to be a lot of hurt people I think.
As for me I have a renewed energy and I am not going to go away quietly. I can see how this is going to gain momentum. I mean when you can read the new elders book before they get it that’s pretty telling I would say.
Thanks again for this awesome line of thought.
as a person that has recently come to terms with the reality that the truth is not really the truth .
does anyone else remember the feeling when they realized things were just not true.
it’s wierd all the years i spent preaching i never really considered what it must have felt like to have two people at your door trying to convince you that your religion of birth was a lie.
Thanks so much for all the great expressions. It’s comforting to know I am not alone.
Things are going to be ok.
as a person that has recently come to terms with the reality that the truth is not really the truth .
does anyone else remember the feeling when they realized things were just not true.
it’s wierd all the years i spent preaching i never really considered what it must have felt like to have two people at your door trying to convince you that your religion of birth was a lie.
As a person that has recently come to terms with the reality that the truth is not really the truth
does anyone else remember the feeling when they realized things were just not true. It’s wierd all the years I spent preaching I never really considered what it must have felt like to have two people at your door trying to convince you that your religion of birth was a lie. I just was always under the impression that they should be so relieved to find out the truth.
Now that I have come to grips with this reality frankly it’s a punch in the gut. Part of me is feeling how stupid could I have been all these years. Part of me is ashamed and feel like I need to make amends for the damage I may have done.
I can tell you this looking back I can get a better understanding of how people must feel both inside and outside the organization. I mean there is a lot of hurting JWs. You can just see everyone is just worn out and hanging on for dear life and the thought it was all for nothing all the bad you have done like shunning ones.
I will never shun another person. The whole thing is frankly just so bizarre I can hardly settle down.
I have been listening to coverts podcasts and they are helpful. I am grateful for the friendships I am slowly developing on line with some great people. I have some bridges to rebuild to some real great “worldly” people that always treated me right but could always never pinpoint this wierd side of me. I wanted to be part of the group but you know they were bad lol.
I remember when I lived in Ottawa. There use to be a apostate that would stand outside the hall with a pitch fork and wierd clothing with a sign with the date of Armageddon on it that he would change every week because of course nothing happened. That was my idea of a apostate. I had no idea there was loving kind concerning people out here being ostracized as they are. That’s how shielded I alowed myself and my family I be. I thought I was doing the right thing. Religion in my opinion has done so much harm to people in general I feel.
I am not sure how my future is going to turn out but I am not afraid anymore of not being worthy of making it into the new world. If it happens they will have to take me as I am because I can’t play this game in good conscious anymore.
do we all remember that expression when we were jws?.
someone new would "come into the truth", and be so enthusiastic and keen, that we would all joke about "locking them up for the first 6 months because they would preach to everyone".
jws thought that the passion for "learning the truth" was the issue.
It’s funny I just woke up recently and I was thinking the same thing.its hard to keep your mouth shut though. Last weeks WT was a tough one.
i am looking for a article that appeared with in the last 15 years or so.
i can’t remember much other than there was a drawing of a young man climbing out of a hole in the ground.
not much info but if that joggs a memory with someone i would appreciate knowing more about it.
I am looking for a article that appeared with in the last 15 years or so. I can’t remember much other than there was a drawing of a young man climbing out of a hole in the ground. Not much info but if that joggs a memory with someone I would appreciate knowing more about it.
Thanks in advance.
i have been introduced to this site by my new friends that are helping me navigate through the reality of waking up and finding out that i have been lied to my whole life.
i grew up in the truth and have given over thirty years to this organization and the few years i wasn’t there my mind was certainly trapped.
the more i think about it i am really not that surprised there was a lot along the way that should have woken me up but it took till recently.
Hi. I have been introduced to this site by my new friends that are helping me navigate through the reality of waking up and finding out that I have been lied to my whole life.
I grew up in the truth and have given over thirty years to this organization and the few years I wasn’t there my mind was certainly trapped. The more I think about it I am really not that surprised there was a lot along the way that should have woken me up but it took till recently.
The october 2018 WT lesson on honesty was an eye opener for me. These guys have been lyeing all along and continue to play this shell game of misleading information. As I fade here now I can see so clearly how this is happening more often. Witnesses in general have no idea why there Kingdom Halls are being sold many see it as a sign the great tribulation is close.
I look forward to sharing my thoughts here and building a supportive group so I can rebuild my life somehow at this late stage.
I do feel a lot free in the mind. Being a Jehovah’s Witness for me was not fun. Like many I was just hanging on desperate until this system ended. I guess the ship is not going to sink after all.
